New Year means great things, leaving past and embracing new adventures. We still have our old patterns. I’m going to tell you a story about animals and their patterns.

If you put a buzzard in a pen six or eight feet square and entirely open at the top, the bird, in spite of his ability to fly, will be an absolute prisoner. The reason is that a buzzard always begins a flight from the ground with a run of ten or twelve feet. Without space to run, as is his habit, he will not even attempt to fly, but will remain a prisoner for life in a small jail with no top.

The ordinary bat that flies around at night, a remarkable nimble creature in the air, cannot take off from a level place. If it is placed on the floor or flat ground, all it can do is shuffle about helplessly and, no doubt, painfully, until it reaches some slight elevation from which it can throw itself into the air. Then, at once, it takes off like a flash.

A Bumblebee if dropped into an open tumbler will be there until it dies, unless it is taken out. It never sees the means of escape at the top, but persists in trying to find some way out through the sides near the bottom. It will seek a way where none exists, until it completely destroys itself.

Our patterns are also this inbred into us. Great news is we can change them.There is a wonderful time frame to break and create new habits but nothing can change without the majic ingredient of your deep deep desire for change. For it sounds so simple the majic wand just do it thing. It is not but you need to bring your mantel of desire, your reason for wanting new ways and light in your life, and deep courage to preserve when you really don’t want to .

40 Days consecutive days is what is needed to break a pattern, 90 Days will start the cement drying on a new one.Because once you break the old one you need to be building what you want in it’s place. The building always takes longer than the breaking. So 120 days to create a new habit. I know the new thought processes around are 21 days. 21 Consecutive days will give you a start but it will not give you a completion. Building new habits is really an amazing process. You also would do well to have supporters and those you are accountable to in this process.

Join me for Do you want your Skinny Back sign up here  http://gurutej.com/blog/workshops-and-retreats/ This is Sept 11th the memorial of us knowing that we are a target, that people hate what we have and how we have sometimes acted. This is the day that we work up and a new and huemanly expensive chapter started in our psychic. What are you doing to honor this day, all the people who gave their lives, all the people who served afterwards, all of us who are doing anything at all to serve peace within ourselves and the world. This in a honoring day. Honor all and your habits to create more peace by having sustainable hueman habits.

Blessings

Gurutej

Have you noticed how most people talk and talk and blog and blog and don’t say much? Or they say toooo much of things that are going come back to bite them. What if we only spoke when we had something really deep to contribute? Trash talk and blah blah would be a thing of the past? That isn’t happening any time soon but you can decide that you will not be a contributor to the airwave pollution. That you will be part of a different club the Voice Under Club. That your voice is for understanding. That your voice is for embracing. That your voice is about merger. That unless you can speak to that at whatever level you are you remain peacefully or faking peacefully quite.

My teacher was big into Fake it and Make it. At first I thought that is just lying straight up. Then it started to sink in that it really is about not believing your false voices as true. It really is about  what you want to be going towards will always have upsets along the way some little other Grand Canyon size. So how good are you at faking that you are fearless? How good are you at being present for someone even when you don’t want to? What happens to us is We fake the wrong things. We fake loving or caring for someone to get what we think we want. We fake our age, our weight. our height, our backgrounds, our like and dislikes these are not the things to fake. I want you to fake that you can’t do it. Make it that you can do it.  Play with this. After all it is Labor Day What are you laboring with or on in your life? How can you fake it with integrity?

Can you see whatever it is as a great chance to open a new aspect of your being. Hardships all have a ship in them. So get in it and sail to the new shores of your next phase. Know we are all much more connected in this next phase. What you are choosing will it uplift or contribute to the more connected state of the world? Let your fake it be vast. Let your make it be really making it and take lots of people with you. Make your corporate climate be one of honoring your most valuable resources. People. You . Them. All of them

Come visit me www.gurutej.com www.theenergygurus.com and see what I have for you treats for sure. Done.

Wahe Guru love to you.

Gurutej

What was this week about for you? I felt like I was caught up in the vice grip of Mercury retrograde mixed with Full moon in Pisces. Then I had to realize I cleaned Grace’s room out this week and the total blankness of it stared out at me every time I came out of my bathroom. The starkness and hollowness of what was no longer in form. How easily we are eradicated from this plane. Clean out a room,  a house, or  an office and you no longer exist except in the hearts and minds of those who carry you around with them. Oh if you have been fortunate enough to create a great work of art you will be remembered a little longer.But in terms of all Infinity not very long.

We all are both here and not here. How much of us is really seen when we are here? How much do we want known about us? How in alligment is what we say with what we are doing?  Death doesn’t just happen to someone close to us and then we pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and get back on that proverbial horse. It is supposed to affect us. It is supposed to wake us up. It is supposed to make us look at everything and see if it is worth our time.

So I’m both doing more to support everyone and everything I know and at the same time honoring what I contribute more. I’m not being talked into teaching entire Teacher Trainings for less because they won’t do the work to get the more people they need to make it work for everyone to prosper. Yogi Bhajan for many many years would come and teach and take ALL the money yes all. We finally got it so we could pay of the venue and then he would get paid then we got venue and advertising but we had to fight for each thing. It made us strong and resourceful. I feel that I have done a disservice to so many by filling in the gaps of what they really needed to be doing because they felt they couldn’t and I knew I could.

Know you can. If you need more students for a TT put it off till you have them or get others to help you promote it or get creative …. If you need more help with your life seek it out weather it is a spiritual teacher or a housekeeper. Don’t be intimated by the feeling of insecurity that WILL come up. If you are living life you will feel insecure and uncertain when tackling big things. If you never have these feelings you are either super secure or playing life far too safe or both.

I am on a tear. This week I saw more stupidity. It hurts me to see people making such dumb statements, transfering workloads to those already full up, whining about things that can be solved with just a little work or awareness. It is truly the time to wake the you know what up.do a little self assessment and see where you are going for the less than then ask yourself I I died tomorrow would I want to be remembered for this or like this. Remember every person you meet carries a snapshot of you around in their head how are you effecting everyone who passes through this things called your life. Someone sent me this on facebook last week or maybe this week she was speaking about how I affected her life.

“Walking Grace.  We’ve never been introduced.  I’d bought your Chakra Yoga tape and then one day I saw you in Santa Monica.  You were the embodiment of Grace.  A huge smile was on your face and as we passed on the street our eyes met and I just felt a loving connection as you smiled as me.  It happened every time I saw you randomly around town.  I’ve since moved from LA.  But know that you inspire me to walk in Love and Grace and to radiate that to everyone as you did to me. Love and Light ~ L”

How will you be remembered. When you feel funky shut your mouth and chant. Roll those infinite sounds around like gargle. When you feel funky fearlessly look at what you have been eating and thinking. When you get an inspiration or message in meditation pay attention and act on it. Don’t save it for “someday” That’s only good if you have a pet lion and friend who is a tin man. This is the time. NOW means NOW.

Keith was the only one who didn’t feel my bite this week. Why? Because the man is doing the work. He is living soul first. He is serving a vision and people. He is seeing  how and when he is doing to much for instead of empowering others to pick up or grow up. He didn’t even know My lioness had emerged because he gave her nothing to tear him apart for. The Lioness does know when to lye down and purr. She also is always on guard for when she need to jump up and take charge. Where is your jump? What are you jumping into? What makes you jumpy?

Come spend Sept 11th with me it will be priceless I can promise you.sign up here http://gurutej.com/blog/workshops-and-retreats/ Who cares what it is know it will uplift you. Fierce is the new fire. Fierce is the new calm. Fierce is the new hope. I will mix fierce with liquid gold.

For Gods’ sake check out my site www,gurutej,com and see all the great work Brian has done on both sites and what is available to support you. take a couple minutes and see what speaks to you. If it not there tell me I want to serve you

Blessings and deep love

Gurutej

This is always a great question. You have to discern if the person asking is testing you or they really want the truth right? But even if you tell them your opinion is that really the truth? Truth doesn’t have a horse in the race. It just knows what is. Our opinions are our perspectives that we are sometimes deeply attached to and sometimes less so.

It’s great because about 10 days ago I  said  was going to be blogging daily and then headed off yes really offff to North Carolina where I couldn’t even use my computer. I had super limited computer time. All this meant is no blogging not even a little. Was that bad? Not once I gave up the concept that I had given my word that I was not keeping. What I did keep is being present with situations that required me to be present. I got to meet my Beloved’s Father who is 86 and to say he is a character is not nearly descriptive enough. I can tell you that he fox hunts on horse back, that he loves getting out on his tractor (it has a much more descriptive name something to do with Hog oh Bushhogging ) and cut fields, he loves his horses and lets them out and brings them back each day, he ask’s Keith to do things by telling him what is wrong and Keith just takes care of it. No thanks, no explaining what needs to be done. I watched and realized he could train us all in how to effortlessly get other people to do things for us. There is not a lack of Gratitude nor a propensity towards it. I was fascinated and it wasn’t just his son’s who do things for him because he got his tractor stuck, really stuck and some neighbor, down the road brought his much bigger tractor and get him out and then came the next nite and took him out to dinner. Yes the person who helped him also took him out to dinner. The only other person I have ever seen command this kind of treatment in Yogi Bhajan. I mean command in have that expectancy in his magnetic field. I was entranced. Not by his stories nor his need for the attention of young women but by his capacity to just allow others to do things for him with no interference.

How can we all get out of our own way and neither demand nor block that which wants to flow towards us? He lives in a 30 year old prefab house (really trailer) but he has 4 horses, a mule, a horse trailer and a diesel truck to haul it and 50 acre farm. What is important to one is not to another. Knowing what really uplifts you and give you juice is very important. Then you can spend your time and money following that which really floats your boat across the ocean of your choice. All oceans are vast but the ocean of life is not as vast as the ocean of infinity. We chose all the time what are you choosing now?

My children always used to say when young ” I love you infinity” They said this with hands held wide open as wide as possible. It was guileless and totally precious to see these juicy young soft sweet arms stretched as far as they could go. That is what I want for you. To stretch as far as possible and then some so you can become the beggar who’s humility is only surpassed by their ecstasy. Know what makes you ecstatic and then go beyond that way beyond that. Uncomfort in areas of soul will bring true comfort. Choose Infinite juicy and allow the Universe to give to you through anyone it chooses. Accept, show up, bow, accept, play and see the divine in all.

I love these teachings why? Because they have worked for me in all situations of life and trust me I have had some dusesy’s. That and the fact that my teacher commanded me to create things to support people is what made me produce the products I have. Check them out. See what speakes to you . I have two new ebooks coming out this week and you want them both. Some things are going away such as the special on private sessions so if you want those you have 2 weeks. New ones like the ebooks coming. If you don’t have my book you must ask yourself why not. Everything in life is about relationships and energy. You need one to have the other work well so get it got it good. http://gurutej.com/store.html

Blessings

Gurutej

It’s true just climb aboard the good ship lolly pop. Is it time that we all want something fun and soothing to suck on we will take whatever we can even if it just masquerades as close. It’s so interesting that one of the most soothing things you can do is after breathing consciously close your mouth and suck on your own tongue. No it will not taste like a lolly pop but it will sooth you in ways a lolly pop never will. Really suck on your tongue for 3 minutes and you will regain something priceless…. you. Simple, won’t cost you anything yet my bet is you won’t want to do it. why? because it doesn’t cost anything, and is a little weird.

How good can it really be if it is priceless and doesn’t cost. Hmmmm!  That one is up to you. I suggest gather your courage and truth is no one can see you soo it so they will have no idea how weird you are being. Really being stressed and not knowing how to get out of it or around it is weird. We all want control yet we don’t sepnd time learning to control the real things in our lives.

Can you control your breath?

Can you control your mouth? What you say and what you eat?

Can you control your mind when it goes off on you?

Can your control your food intake?

Can you control your temper? Your depression?

We try to control our jobs and the “other”  people in our lives but we don’t try to control the most basic things in our own grasp. Look at you and see what needs to be controlled. Do you know how to shift your basic states. See the recurring ways you see things and things happen to you and then ask if you can control them? If so how?

We all want fast, easy answers but these are not fast easy questions. You have to answer them just as you have to die. No one else can do it for you. If they could lots of rich people would be paying others to die for them. We want to pay someone to give us the quick life fixes but they aren’t fixes they are just stays of execusion. Really fixes are priceless. They require practice. They are not overnite deals. But if you start now things will be better sooner than if you just put it off or go for band aids of all varieties.

Meditation and movement are two long term fixes. You get to show up each day and take care of the real you. try this super easy one.

Ma Meditation:
Sit in a comfortable position and bring your hands to your heart in prayers pose.
Take a deep breath in and chant “Maaaaa” holding the lips together as long as you
can, keeping the sound in your mouth cave, and then letting it escape with great
delight.

Variation let the lips almost smack together doing short continuous MA’s 3-11 minutes try it priceless.

Bless you, Bless others be Blessed.

Wahe Guru peace and internal lollypops to you

Gurutej

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I’ve decide to do something daring and I really don’t know if I can do it. I don’t say that about much. I have promised to blog about something deep each day. Oh but that is not all I’m promising all this when I’m leaving with Keith for almost a week to go back to North Carolina. I have no idea what Internet access will be like. I have no idea of anything.

That is the point of this blog. Emptiness:  When you really get empty it may be scary but empty holds the potential for everything. Empty is scary because of the vastness. Empty is scary because of it’s unfamiliarity. Empty is scary because we equate it to not enough and starving. Empty is quite the opposite of that. It is vast and vastness scares us all. It’s the want it, push it away. Want it, thwart it. Want it, run from it full on. Want it and if you and me are willing to dance with emptiness it will enfold us. Yes enfold not engulf us.

This morning Keith and I were meditating together. We were doing Long Ek Ong Kars (if you don’t know what that is connect with me you need to) and I must have stopped the external chant but it was still doing me. It was so profound I could neither move, nor make a sound. I just became the sound. I just was and was not at the same time. It wasn’t a matter of liking it or even loving it. I became it. I was empty the sound was everything. Yes words seem empty trying to wedge them into spaces that give you the vastness of the eternity of that sound. All I can share is go to www.spiritvoyage.com  get some chanting music that will uplift and feed you soul then meditate with it.

We are only here to feed our souls and touch the souls of others. All else is just filler. Filler can be fun but know it is filler not the gift. Your gifts must be brought through. Become empty, Become vast. Become essential.

Blessings

Gurutej

I had one of those last few days that test the soul. Do you really want to know the gory details? Can I just tell you when I got Lisa Zimmeran’s email about what this week was like and the challenges and I had what was predicted in spades. Poor Spades I needed one to bury all the dead bodies. No, not really but it did make my nails curl. First  I was so looking forward to my trip to Montana to be with Keith and meet his Dad most of all and his brothers as well. I was really looking forward to some truly down time in the woods with my love. All my travels and down time  has been dedicated to someone else who has needed my time more than me. Well I will spare you the two day long ordeal lets just say my suitecase made it to Bozeman twice and I didn’t get there at all. Learned some valuable lessons intuition counts more than what things look like. When you have it use it. Then I decided to take the day off  Monday and go to the beach which had not been part of my summer. I wasn’t supposed to be her so why not have a yummy beach day to heal the sadness of not being in Montana. Why because even in Laguna it is cold and overcast till 1pm and the water was a cool 61 degrees. Yes I swam any way but it was short and no face in the water. Tuesday  Shot 3 hours of an upcoming webinar series and lets just say there was a major glitch and lost it all. Then the exploding really, really red marker followed by an internet meltdown which in my case also means no phones either, the only down side of Vonage. Not for an hour but called in at 5:30 am and nothing by noon Wednesday. Called back , Got to love Time Warner, They said they could have someone out between 2-4 pm SATURDAY. Well I went on a tear with them. I told them I would blog about their lack of consumer car. their under staffed repair people and I asked the guy no really I bullied him into admission that they didn’t have enough repair people. They had a guy out Wednesday by the end of the day. Being nice is not always the answer. Be neutral but be effective is. If the situation calls for intimidation use it just don’t be it. Understand the difference. I was brutal but I had nothing against the Customer service man he did what he could but… if I could be pushed to the end of the line he would do that too. I did look into Verizon but they are not in my area or I would have jumped boats yesterday. AT&T or Time Warner is like choosing between the devil and the great torturer. You don’t want to be in bed with either of them. So if you are thinking of Time Warner be warned I call them Timeless Warning.

How did I get over this. SELF CARE. Meditation and meditation and more meditation and got a massage. God was that the best move. I have to say for this week massage trumped  rollerblading at the beach, Trumped my mini swim in super cold water, and lots of yoga with my daughter. We need lot and lots of yoga and meditation this week and next especially so do it. Go to Kundalini Classes they are what is needed in these times. If you can’t then  get my videos they are great assets anyway and do them http://gurutej.com/store_dvd_soon.html Really they will serve you well.

I cannot tell you this will not be a stressful time I can only offer antidotes to connect you to you. To feed your essence so you have the inner strength to endure and thrive in these times. One of my students thanked me yesterday for the meditation she is doing. She committed to the 1000 meditation and has made it the rest of her life meditation. She was just saying that through all that was happening this was what held her together. Pick a meditation and do it for 40 days. Get a video and do the meditation on there for 40 days if you don’t know what to do. Bonus note  The Women and intuition DVD had 6 meditations. Let the chaff be taken away from the essence of you. Don’t loose you.

Much love and Blessings may you pass through this eye of the needle and see the vastness as it happens and hold it as you come through. Rebirthed into the essence of you.

Blessings

Gurutej

Most of us have had times where we are done. Totally done. We don’t care things or at least one thing is so bad that it sinks us. if  have you are reading this then some how got through or past that moment or situation. What did it for you? I want to hear about It . I’ll tell you why. Several things happened. You all know Gracie died and it was a challenging situation and time. She was like a daughter to me. Then today Frank Kern whom I must confess I almost never read his email had something amazing which I am sharing with you

Her name is Madam C.J. Walker and here she is:

And let me tell you, this lady could have …

Kicked All Of Our Asses …Combined!

Here’s why:

First, the article in Oprah didn’t say much about her except that she became extremely successful selling hair products door-to-door.

All I can really remember is it had her picture and then it mentioned her success.

Now, being a former door-to-door man myself, I decided to check her out.

Here’s what I found:

First, she was born in Louisiana.

On a farm.

In 1865.

Not really an ideal time and place to be born if you’re:

1. A woman.
2. African American.

But she had plenty of additional challenges to face.

She was an orphan at age seven.

At age 14, she got married …reportedly to escape the abuse that she was suffering at the hands of her brother-in-law.

She became a mother at age 17, and a widow at age 20.

She supported herself and her daughter by picking cotton on a farm, by being a laundress, and by working in a barber shop. From what I can tell, the most she ever made during that time was $1.50 a day.

But It Got Worse

At around 25 years old, she began to develop a a condition that caused her to start balding.

Can you imagine? As if she didn’t have enough to deal with …now the poor lady’s hair is falling out.

(And we whine when our cell phone drops a call every now and then… kind of embarrassing.)

Anyway …

Here’s Where It Gets Good

It shouldn’t surprise you that she quickly became a student of “how to fix this damned balding problem”.

In fact, she researched all kinds of treatments, and eventually discovered that sulfur could abolish the scalp disease that was causing people to lose their hair.

(Apparently, people lost their hair a lot back then because they didn’t bathe as much. They would get some nasty scalp infection and their hair would fall out. But if you treated the problem with sulfur, you could knock it out.)

So she did the only logical thing to do, which was to start her own business …selling a product called “Madam Walker’s Wonderful Hair Grower”.

Keep in mind, she was just starting out and didn’t have a big budget (probably NO budget at all) so she had no choice but to …

Go Out, Grab The World By The Balls, And Bend It To Her Will!

And the first thing she did was to go door to door, selling her product.

Listen – nobody really embraces a door to door sales person with open arms these days, you know?

But imagine what it must have been like for Madam Walker in the racist and male dominated environment she was working in back then.

…That took some cojones.

How many times do you think she was rejected?

How many doors do you think were slammed in her face?

How many insults did she hear?

I’m willing to bet she even was threatened …regularly.

But did that stop her?

Hell No!

Not only did she survive …she thrived.

Mrs Walker hung in there and sold more products, developed new ones, and finally opened up a factory in Indianapolis.

By 1913, she was traveling around the world training other women to sell her products.

…And by the time she died in 1919 at age 51, she had become

The World’s First Female Self-Made Millionare!

Against incredible odds, wouldn’t you say?

Man – what a story.

Did I mention that her parents were former slaves? I don’t think I did.

So her story is amazing, and I think her success is largely due to one critical characteristic:

The Amazing Ability To Get Off Of One’s Ass And Get To WORK.

Seems we have a lack of that ability these days.

Think about it.

Then I went to read the Huffington post and it was about Arriana Huffington and Tony Robbins getting together to help Americans inspire each other. She just wrote a book and he is doing a series on NBC to help get people up and running after “tragedies”. This is the time to share our secrets with everyone who has lost or is loosing hope.

Hope is not something  you can buy it is something we manufacture, we relate to , we change our way of seeing things and find new ways to do things. We see a problem of others and find a solution that will help them. We get bigger than our fears, our situations and see the vastness that is possible. That is what successful people do.

The first ingredient of that success is energy. You need this to have clarity, to have new ways to view life or a situation. You need energy to switch your groping sadness, or anxiety, or depression or…. to a voila!!! So what are you doing to get more energy? Truly tell me if you have some goodies I want to know.

I have goodies and you are all welcome to share them. I have spent 40 yes 40 years refining the wonderful teachings that were passed down from my teacher Yogi Bhajan. You can  join my membership site personal sustainability for free for 1 onthhttp://www.theenergygurus.com/ or come to our very exclusive first time ever course “Do you  want your Skinny back?” on Sept 11th all day register here http://gurutej.com/blog/workshops-and-retreats/ get your ebook  for you will need it now it can change everything in your  life and plus you need it for the course. http://gurutej.com/blog/workshops-and-retreats/ This is help you feel and be supported. Also time is running out to take advantage of this offer of one on one coaching with me at a never to be repeated price http://gurutej.com/store.html

Look these times are challenging but that is what creates greatness. It is only what you do with the cow dung. Dry it and use it for fuel. Put it in your garden and help everything grow better. Extract the fluid for grey water and use the rest as compose. Or sit in it and get real stinky. There is a saying  in Lyberia ” If a baby poops on your legs don’t cut your legs off clean your legs off.” Be the solution. Be the be light. Be the one. Use me I am here to be used who knows how much longer I will be here. We all act like we will always be here. We will be somewhere but not here.

Use me I am yours.

Love and Blessings

Gurutej

We sometimes think we REALLY know someone but we never know the totality of the person till we know the totality of everything. This is just my tribute and hit on a being called Gracie who lived with me for the biggest part of 5 years. In fact she was moving out, moving on every few months and finally had to die to leave. She is not gone yet.

Gracie

You were such an amazing vapor. You blew through our lives splashing unexpected majic. You dressed like a flowing angel, hippie making shawls your trade mark and at the end you accented that with boots. Your to be remembered black boots that were your grounding agent. You needed tethers to hold you earth bound for you had no time/space markers. 20 minutes could me tomorrow or maybe not at all who knew only you. You could drive the scheduled insane with cancellations and postponements but you refused to be boxed in. You were more ether than earth.

You were a lover of land and city. When you are on the land you wanted all the city offered and when in the city the land called to you. Thus your two homes straddling your two worlds. You wanted to bring all your worlds of people together. Your dream of a house with a white picket fence was revealed to me as a place to have all your people in one place. Building community together. Your Hospice room became that home where all gathered to be with you bringing their gifts to connect and enchant you. You the enchanted one got to receive our gifts.

You always wanted to have the perfect love, to be loved and seen by the one and yet…. You had so many more than the one who deeply loved you, your spirit. We all came calling to be with you. Yet your deepest love was for the being called Marley or Marley man as we would call him. You wanted to figure out a safe expansive passage for him through this life. You gave him such an array of experiences from travel, to alternative schools to living in Code Pink houses and attending so many environmental, and peace events. You gave him the grace of knowing the beauty of service. You wanted the best schools for him. You wanted to home school him. You wanted, you wanted him to love you. To be connected with you. To know how much you cared. I always used to tease you that Marley would become an Accountant just to have some structure in his life. He wanted a room of his own. You gave him rooms everywhere you roamed. He wanted a set place. You gave him the set of the Universe to feel free everywhere. The cancer Gypsy parade all three of you traipsing the world in search of experiences, in search of home, love, the unknown only you will know for sure what.

Oh you of many ideas. Oh you who would passionately want to paint for a week then be called to write the endless story, then go serve, then get a job, then find the perfect love, or sing. I encouraged you to pick one just pick one for a year or two and then move to the next but that was far to practical. It made no sense to you. No more than the need to exercise did. You wanted to want it but did not yet want it till you got to Hospice then you wanted that gym membership When I ask you why you responded in total seriousness, “To swim of course I need to get strong.” Which meant I am not ready to leave. My foot print is not strong enough here, not big enough not deep enough. Your footprint is just perfect. You left me with wonder and as you said in our meditation. You gave me looseness. You loosened my bonds of what needed to be and replaced them with ribbons blowing in the wind.

When Keith saw your picture before meeting you. He exclaimed, “ What beauty and innocence.” Yogi Bhajan always said, “Loose anything before you loose your innocence”. You may have felt hurt, angry, shamed, unloved but what shone through was your innocence, your true caring, your wanting to be part of and bringing your gifts to the party whatever party it was. You got us all to take care of you without ever feeling like you were less than. It was an even trade you brought your Gracieness and we got to house and feed you. It turned out to be a very fare deal. Thank you for Gracing my life your sounds are still resounding in our home and in my heart. I chant AKAL to send you on to total merger.

Did you? What did I get that you might have or might not have gotten. Hmmm many things just want to share a few. I got my book did you? It is beautiful to the touch and the way it will touch and support your life. Go here right now and do it. http://gurutej.com/store_books.html

I alos got to go help my wonderful daughter move. She has never asked me to help her with anything like that since she was 12 she is now 33 and in medical school. She wanted me to come help her decorate since I do have a good way with spaces. At least I think so and interestingly enough so does she which had never been shared before now.

So after a few days at Solstices I went to Phoenix and had the blessing of being with my daughter with a mission. She was not only moving but on a cleanse. She had been in the peace corps and had Denge fever 3 times on lots fo antibotics and then super duper parasite cleanse after her return not the health food type we did try that and it wasn’t strong enough for what she had. So that had been years ago and she knew it was time. She was taking the summer off and decided to do the cleanse oh and move at the same time. God is she my daughter or what. How much can you pack into one situation. I got to cook and make liver flush and clean veggies for her. She did all the juicing. The first day we actually napped briefly and then got nails done and hiked 113 at 7pm Wahe Guru hot, equal sweating opportunity for everyone. Extra cleanse benefits.

The next day after our cleanse food, which is my usual diet at least on the days she was on when I was there, we were off to shop. She has a studio apt. She was moving to a third floor studio so she wanted to enclose the really large balcony and make it into  a meditation/entertainment space. We had fun going from Home depot, to Kmart, to Target, Bed Bath and Beyond back to Kmart, and World Imports and of course Ross twice. We found good things and then found better things.

She had been given this Futon frame which we tried to work with finding outdoor cushions that would work with it and not cost a fortune. We finally just chucked the futon frame and changed course. Kinda like life if it ain’t working got to try something else. We did and in one place found super inexpensive chairs and a really sweet inlaid table all for about the price of one cushion.

It was a wonderful way to spend time with my daughter. The next day we got to pack and haul. Across the quad and up three flights of stairs. She did have others helping with the hauling. Really an honor to have your child let you go through their stuff and pack it . I swore I would not haul but landed up doing it anyway. no not because she asked just because I am after all, the mother. Mothers just do for their children doesn’t really matter what age does it? We just want to help them in whatever the situation.

Then I got a quick tour of her campus and got a peak into her life and what was offered there. I was most impressed with the 24 hr. library when she told me that some kids never went to class they just studied on their own, others would sometimes go but would not get up till noon and study till 2 or 4 am. Still others put together bikes and studied the nite before the test. We all do it differently and they allowed and gave space to and for that. I loved the realization that we don’t all need the same things. Knowing what you need and working with it is just plane smart. Allowing for help in the areas you may not be as gifted in is also truly smart. Thus why I have a brilliant Assistant.

Then off to meditate at the SRF shrine before going to the airport. It was an overnite flight for me because I decided who in their right mind wants to fly all nite there will be lots of room on this flight. Wrong  LOTS of people seem to love overnite flights. I was not one of them but greatful to make the flight and not spend more hours in the Phoenix Airport.

Next installment is South Caroline and meeting Keith’s children and grandchildren in one fell swoop oh with no sleep. The yogic way of stretching time and space. Stay tuned.

Remember get the book the Ebook good the actual book an ahhhh velvety cover. okay guys let her buy it and you will get the gifts of the support tools. Go here. Go here so I can leave you alone. I won’t be happy till you All  have a copy. It is truly that good. Don’t miss out on your signed copy.

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