This is the “D” of God to destroy. The cycle of life is all about generating, organizing, and destroying. The Goddess is more spacious.
G O D D E S S
Yet, all that lives must die and change form and nature. It is only then do we allow time and space to be our ruthless teachers or we chose a teacher that can guide us into an unconditionally-empowered state.
What do I mean by that? That you accept tools when presented and you use the tools you are given to seek that connected state of being. Will you be there all the time? No. But you will be there more and more, the more you practice—the more you fall in love with the feeling of connection and empowerment.
My Teacher, Yogi Bhajan, gave us great tools. Not meaning ones we liked all the time, but great tools nonetheless. I remember one time, when, as he put me on the millionth fast, he told me I should just drink fluids for the rest of my life.
This one seemed more substantial. It was 120 days of steamed daikon radishes and water. Yep! If you have ever steamed daikons, you know the smell, it is just dreadful! Your whole house reeks of this truly nasty smell. It permeates everything with its noxious odor. Yet eating steamed daikons is like eating water. No taste, little texture, not filling or fulfilling on any level.
Now, remember that I was running a community; not just laying around on these juice, or almost-juice, fasts. This one I got down to 108 lbs in the first 11 days. I now weigh 127 and I’m 5’8, so 108 is ready to fly away. I felt weak and floaty, so I called him to ask, “What can I do so I can function?” His secretary, my friend, answered the phone and she said something very funny to me when I told her my situation. She said, “Do you think everyone does what he tells them to do?” I answered a very naïve, “Yes.” She laughed and handed the phone to him. He said, “OK, you are done. Go and eat whatever you want.” I did. I had a small piece of toast and ½ of a banana. Bliss! I’m telling you this because it could have gone another way. He could have said, “You finish those 120 days,” and I would have done that.
So how can you destroy the fear and not be destroyed by it? Even in death can you walk willingly into the next phase or will you fight that till it claims you nonetheless?
Do this meditation, my love. It will help to destroy the obstacles to your embracing a teacher and the teachings that will set your life free.
Challenge and Antidote: https://youtu.be/X4_nZowgkVw
Do the meditation for longer than the few repetitions we do together. Do it to destroy the fear or the fear will destroy you. Freedom means connection, not security.
I am with you. Wahe Guru.
Love and Blessings to You,