What happens when you get really moved in some direction? Many things. Some movements of life we love and others well they go in the other category. Really it is what we can learn from the situations life gives us so kindly. I have had an amazing last few weeks and it will take me many blogs to share even a small part of it all. Today I want to share the most recent and impressive part with you.
Yesterday I planned to have a total down day. I have been traveling sooo much that I just wanted a dive into the ocean and get a massage. Simple being day. The day started out bleak, overcast and with my cable down so no internet access. The cable took awhile to heal, the ocean wasn’t happening due to cold and overcast. Then I got “the call” The call I had been awaiting. Saturday I went to the Hospice to be with Gracie. Thank God I did not go there to “See” her because her form was truly frightening. Cancer does truly devestating things to the body. This pretty, petite woman was truly ravaged. She resembled the scream more than her true shell that I had known. Face caved in, temples indented, all teeth and eyes open seeing nothing here. All vacant. I talked to her telling her of the grace and love awaiting her as she let go. Many had told her before me. She was waiting for me to come say goodbye. I knew that. We also decided if we wanted to help her go we all needed to stay away for a day and see if she could let go. She did. She transformed. Gracie still is, her form is now different.
She is getting the love she never felt. She is getting to complete the things she never completed. She was such a great teacher for us all in so many ways. We all got to see what we thought we were giving and what we truly were. What she was giving us both by her gifts and by her resistence. She was teaching us that what is in our subconscious is what rules us as we leave. She was teaching us that we all need more looseness or more structure in our existences. She was teaching us that death is not the best time to decide to start living your life in a way that makes sense on the earth. She was such a generous teacher.
I am also learning as I am forced to go through her room here which I could have done for the last few months but it didn’t see right till she was gone. How much stuff we have and how irrelevant most of it is to others. Go through your things and get very generous. Give things to the people who would like to have them now not waiting till you go. Keep what you love and pass on the others things both big and small. She hoarded samples from health food stores. I don’t think she used them but she collected them. Don’t think wholefoods gives much away but she went to ones that did. You will get to have a few of them. Can’t imagine having a hoarded die. Gracie had few possessions. I realized that I never was the mom who went through her kids room. It still feels invasive going through Gracie’s stuff. It’s still hers.
So my question to you is what are you doing to clear your subconscious so you are ready to fly freely when your time comes? How are you unburdening yourself? What tools do you have that you want to share with others? Here are some of mine
1. Make time daily to be quite with only you.
2. Chant every chance you get all day long is best. Chant in rhythm with your walk, your talk, chant and play with the infinite in each moment.
3. Breath and let each breath take you into the miracle of the moment.
4. See not only what you have to do but what is truly before you. The gifts in all the forms of life. The overcast skies, the radiating heat, the sweet smell of flowers that try to arrest us etc.
5. Make eating wonderful, communal, and enjoyable. Take the 10-60 minutes to taste, chew, enjoy live food, lively company.
6. Sleep and deeply enjoy the one you sleep with.
So much more but really life gets truly simple. We like to complicate it. If yours is complicated see what you can let go of to get back to simple. All truth is simple. Complicated creates anxious. Simple, complicated you choose. Choose you do.