How many times in life have we asked Why? Why me ? Why this? Why not me Why not this is the real question. Truly we are given situations in life to grind us down. Sometimes it is very fine sand paper and we hardly notice it. Sometimes it feels like boulders rubbing against each other big, heavy and intense. The real question is what do we do with comes at us.
Trust me I would have chosen almost anything over my daughter having a life threatening situation. Let me take it on. Let it not be what it seems to be. Let it just vanish. I do get that there is something here for us to learn. She and I, and me and you. She is affected the most but I can tell you I am a close second. I also know everything breath I take is both important and a gift. Important in that I have a chance to send her healing energy. She is occupying about 90% of my brain and equal heart space at this moment. So there is no room for freaking because it will make her sicker. Because it is totally out of sink with what the Divine plan is. It blocks my vision of seeing what that is.
Yet I understand everyone wants to express their sadness, their concern, their Oh My God what if. I appreciate all the love, the prayers, the meditation and all the chances I have been given to redirect the worry energy. I have to admit there are people I can’t return their calls because I know they will want to tell me their story. How this is affecting them. Right now I need to stay with the big plan. I need an open heart. I need to feel the deep mother love that knows she will track down death and scare it away if need be. Mothers are fond and fierce. Do not try and seperate them from their young not matter how old their young are. This fierceness gets to move the Universe through love not fear. Through heart power instead of fear power, Through knowing not masterbating questions of why or how. It is love that can redirect, reframe, reconcile the dis-ease and create ease. Wahe Guru