What do we do when our minds get blown? It can be in any direction, a direction we love or one that we would like to send back but it blows our circuitry. This happens because we have patterns ingrained and some not quite so ingrained but they have to have a grain because they are patterns within us. All patterns create ruts in the brain. When we loose them we loose the rut or pathway. Sometime we choose to change a pattern and sometimes it comes as part of a package deal.
A job can change where you live and sometimes how you live. A relationship will always create shifts. We often think we know how it will change us but it is never predictable. We wish it were but then we would not get worn smooth.
The two things that life is about is energy and relationships. When we have energy we just go about our lives and use it up. When we don’t have lots of the E word it makes everything challenging. Like moving through thick honey or molasses. It is like those old school dreams that you can never make it to class on time because your movements get you nowhere.
Recently I have entered a new relationship. It was effortless as I had requested yet I get to see my resistance. The falling apart in ways I have never done. The loosing control ahhh. We all have those “control issues” and we don’t even know we have them till the other bumps into them.
I am blessed because my love realizes that I am an alpha female and he is fine with it. That does not mean he lets me boss him around. he teases me in such a sweet way that it makes me laugh. He adores me and doesn’t take my actions seriously. We are kind and honor each other. We are present with each other and can talk about anything even if it is uncomfortable. This is a relationship based of using each other to totally connect infinitely. We are very up front about the purpose. We are using each other.
That does not mean abusing or misusing each other but using the other to see ourselves more clearly. To see the infinite in ourselves and each other even if we don’t like the particular garb the infinite may be waring. We get yes get to be more loving, compassionate and conscious as a way of life.
We are whole on our own. Thank God! We appreciate the gifts the other is bringing and honor them for what they are… gifts. Because of this each moment is precious and encoded with respect, love and immense humor. I have always known that God may really be the laughter in the universe. There is no consciousness without laughter.
Taking ourselves toooo seriously is a dud, a fizzle and truly sad. When I lost my humor for years yes years in my first marriage I knew when I found it again I would be good, great, saved (from myself). It was true when it came back I was alive again.
So laugh today. Play with life. Connect with the person next to you in line even if you don’t think you know them. Enjoy the trip here even if it is not the trip you thought you ordered. The unexpected may happen any minute and if you are so bound up in what needs to be you will miss the door, the hand, the dance. Awaken and enjoy.